Poems

I Choose You

I choose you.

Over the sorrow and the pain,

The thunder and the rain,

In losses or in gain,

I choose you.

I choose you.

When the world is a mess,

In my heartache and my stress,

I won't love you any less,

I still choose you.

I choose you.

When I'm torn,

When I'm battered and I'm worn,

My desires; they're all gone,

Because I choose you.

Because you chose me.

Although I'm not great,

I've done things that I hate, 

I've got sin's dreadful fate,

Yet you chose me.

You chose me.

Knowing I'm impure,

I'm a mess, I'm insecure,

Still you knocked on my door,

And you chose me.

I was a captive, you made me free,

I was at ransome, you paid the fee,

So now I want to make you see,

You mean a lot, as well, to me,

I choose you!

                                                  ASH

Forgive Me

Forgive me...

Forgive me for so flippantly giving in

Forgive me, for committing to this sin

Forgive me for tainting the soul within my skin

Forgive me for fighting a battle I cannot win

Forgive me...

Forgive me for carelessly conceding

To leave me tainted, my salvation impeding

While my recollection of you there, dying, bleeding

Leaves me guilty for forgiveness, begging, pleading

Forgive me...

For this is my flaw

This is my disease and you are the cure

Forgive me for I have you, you and nothing more

Only you can forgive me, forgive me and make me pure.

                ASH

You Are My Only One

How great are you, oh mighty father

Heaven and Earth can tell

Even in the hereafter

I promise I will serve you well

I have made many mistakes my father

But there is not one you’re not willing to forget

You forgive me and give my soul laughter

You’ve given me peace for my regret

But what can I do to return such favours?

Your soul so kind and meek

My king, my heart bows in gratitude as it savours

Your greatness I ever seek

So where should I be afraid to go?

You are my rising sun

Quick to make me love and grow

You are my only one

                  ASH

No matter What

I’m not arguing, I’m just talking today,

But father, please tell me, why I’m feeling this way?

Why must I beg and beg and plea,

To be somebody else, someone else, not me?

My child, I love you, all in all,

But the price of change is a charge quite small,

In comparison to the price already paid,

The down payment of life forever already made

But why must I change, love loves me not,

When I think I have it right, I find another spot

Everyday someone points out another flaw,

And it all adds up to more and more

Is my love not enough for you to see yourself as I?

Every night as you go to sleep, I watch, I hear you cry,

And what I say to you falls on deaf ears,

Smile my child; smiling alone gives me authority over your fears

But father, even as I am smiling, the clouds would reappear,

Bringing back to me memories, I wish were not there.

And as these feelings come back, my heart only aches,

The loneliness I feel and my heart finally breaks.

Give me your heart my child, I will hold it carefully for sure,

I will repair the broken parts and make it better than before.

And when those clouds reappear don’t worry about such things,

For I will be with you once again to cover you with my wings.

God you know my fears, my flaws, my pain and care.

When I think about them all, I feel love can’t reach me here.

When it comes to mistakes, I've made many, and perhaps I might make even more,

Can you still lift me from here, a hundred feet under the floor?

My child, my love can reach you, wherever you may go,

There is no place you can possibly be that my heart doesn't know.

So my love, make your mistakes, I still won’t see a spot,

I’ll be here ready to forgive you for whatever no matter what!

                                                                ASH

More Than You Know

When you pray he listens,

He answers your prayers.

For you alone, the entire world glistens,

The world sings only for your ears.

He took the entire world up for you,

For you alone he trod.

A life full of pain, his passion was true,

For you alone, he shed his blood.

So why these tears in your eyes,

Why carry such unceasing sorrow?

Because beyond those voices, beyond those lies,

There is someone that loves you more than you'll ever know.

                                                  ASH

Supported by the Love of God

Father why do you forgive me,
After I've continuously created this regret?
I had an enemy yesterday,
And I could not forgive his debt.
Despite this fact you look down on me 
And this addiction I always defend
And smile as I beg for forgiveness and say
"I know you can put this to an end"

But time and time again,
I prove your statement untrue,
And time and time again you forgive me saying
"I believe in you"
But my self will sometimes did falter
and miles away I ran,
"I can't do it," I screamed to which you whispered
"I believe you can."

What choice have you left me with my master?
With these boots of steel I trod
With hopes of ending it all today
Supported by the love of God

                                                          ASH